Hi, sorry I haven't updated for a while. Tons of things have happened personally. In case you're wondering how I'm doing...I guess I just need to get back to basics. What am I here for? How much does God really love me anyway? Do I trust that by being in the center of God's will that I would have the most abundant life, life that satisfies and gives me peace more than a life built by my own plans and my own will... Sometimes I feel like I'm just going thru the motions. I guess I'm just too lazy. I'm broken once again. I hate failing time after time, yet I see no drive or will to change my ways cuz I think so much and take no actions. I dunno why I've been so ambivalent, so without hope, so down. I've been given so many blessings, I should not gripe. More thanksgiving, less whining...Looking beyond all my daily routines, my weekly check-ins at church, and many, many other insignificant events, God has to be real in my life. I think I've forgotten my fundamentals. If God isn't in the core, it's gonna be hard. At high and low points in my life, stay in the vine... And love...Learn to love others as Jesus has loved. Trust God as Paul, Abraham, Moses had trusted. Be as focused as Nehemiah. Be as expressive as David.