Yo, I'm back. After months of hiding myself in my cube working on fifaworldcup.com, I've finally gotten myself to blog again. So hi to my readership of 5.
1st order of bizness...check out my newly designed site. fifaworldcup.com. I was the lead design on the official 2003 women's worldcup site and man, am I glad we launched this monster. More content will come soon but yeah, I'm happy wit it.
Just came out of a talk about an app which theoretically arrange information better called "haystacks." He talks so fast that my mind started wandering off. You know, we create all these "bigger better faster stronger" ways of doing things and it just speed up the rat race even more. "Drop this metadata from the inbox to your to-do list..." blah blah blah... I think it just means that I'll spend more time rearranging stuff on my computer. Heh...I guess I'm burnt out. No more computers. I just need a vacation.
Somebody said that in an average lifespan we have 25,550 days. I figured I've already spend 10,000 days. Not half yet but getting close. And I'm like, man, I still don't know what I'm doing with my life. It's still bugging me and takes up pretty much most of my idle time, well, that and another thing. Anyway, just don't wanna follow the herd, which at present time is all about getting married, then what? get a car, get a house, get 2.2 kids. I mean, it's good and all, but i guess there should be more. What's more disturbing is that as a Christian, and one who proclaims that God is real and Jesus is our salvation, I'm still in constant struggle for meaning. I guess you can live life out, pick a couple causes, try to make the world a better place, or just seek pleasure after pleasure and call it a life, but man, why is it so hard for me to concentrate on the eternal perspective? How come I doubt so much about if God is really there. I guess if I say ah screw it, there is no God and life is just what I make of it and just don't think and enjoy it, that'd be a decent way to live too. But I do think that there is a God and this world, the way the world is made, and infinitely complex system which we live in and even our complex selves, can't come out of randomness and must have a creator.
I guess it all comes down to convictions. A man living without any convictions is really just floating from one day to the next, until that 25,550+/- days finishes up. So what can I do that is of value while I still have the time? I guess my current mode of operation is: Love God, Love people. It gets hard though. I'm far from perfect and I have so many scars but I guess I'll just stumble along and strive toward that goal as best I can. God has to prop me up.
Alright, enuff of all this serious stuff. James and I are talking about getting a breakdancing video and trying to be a b-boy poser. Haha, i think i'll look funny breakdancing. Also seeing if I can learn surfing. That sounds cool. Finally, I want to do a non-work website for once...I also need some new tunes...
D
1st order of bizness...check out my newly designed site. fifaworldcup.com. I was the lead design on the official 2003 women's worldcup site and man, am I glad we launched this monster. More content will come soon but yeah, I'm happy wit it.
Just came out of a talk about an app which theoretically arrange information better called "haystacks." He talks so fast that my mind started wandering off. You know, we create all these "bigger better faster stronger" ways of doing things and it just speed up the rat race even more. "Drop this metadata from the inbox to your to-do list..." blah blah blah... I think it just means that I'll spend more time rearranging stuff on my computer. Heh...I guess I'm burnt out. No more computers. I just need a vacation.
Somebody said that in an average lifespan we have 25,550 days. I figured I've already spend 10,000 days. Not half yet but getting close. And I'm like, man, I still don't know what I'm doing with my life. It's still bugging me and takes up pretty much most of my idle time, well, that and another thing. Anyway, just don't wanna follow the herd, which at present time is all about getting married, then what? get a car, get a house, get 2.2 kids. I mean, it's good and all, but i guess there should be more. What's more disturbing is that as a Christian, and one who proclaims that God is real and Jesus is our salvation, I'm still in constant struggle for meaning. I guess you can live life out, pick a couple causes, try to make the world a better place, or just seek pleasure after pleasure and call it a life, but man, why is it so hard for me to concentrate on the eternal perspective? How come I doubt so much about if God is really there. I guess if I say ah screw it, there is no God and life is just what I make of it and just don't think and enjoy it, that'd be a decent way to live too. But I do think that there is a God and this world, the way the world is made, and infinitely complex system which we live in and even our complex selves, can't come out of randomness and must have a creator.
I guess it all comes down to convictions. A man living without any convictions is really just floating from one day to the next, until that 25,550+/- days finishes up. So what can I do that is of value while I still have the time? I guess my current mode of operation is: Love God, Love people. It gets hard though. I'm far from perfect and I have so many scars but I guess I'll just stumble along and strive toward that goal as best I can. God has to prop me up.
Alright, enuff of all this serious stuff. James and I are talking about getting a breakdancing video and trying to be a b-boy poser. Haha, i think i'll look funny breakdancing. Also seeing if I can learn surfing. That sounds cool. Finally, I want to do a non-work website for once...I also need some new tunes...
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